RoLlEr CoAsTeR

My emotions have been on a roller coaster this week. And I guess the week is dragging because Tuesday's blog feels like I wrote it last week. I am happy one moment, sad another and grumpy or pissed of another.  I WANT to be happy. I am fighting and struggling to stay happy.

I have talked to the Bankruptcy attorney, got his paperwork in the mail.  I had misundestood and thought I only needed a little $ to get started.  I need a little to retain him and be able to start throwing his name around to creditors, but I need a LOT to actually file.

I got the new bank account too.

But all of a sudden I feel like I'm "stuck" again.

I've got a daughter doing driver's ed and picking her up from where she's taking it 3 days a week doesn't get me home from work until 6:45.  I don't like that much. At least that is only until October 7th.   My other daughter is having personal issues (is it still "personal" when it affects everyone around you?) that breaks my heart and I just want so much to see her happy and pain free.

Then there is also something going on with me that only a couple people know. That I just can't share right now.  It's kind of making my brain crazy though. A mixture of making me happy and driving me crazy.  Almost more on the driving me crazy side.

And then there is dancing.  I really like dancing and wish I could go more than once or twice a week.  Tuesday when I was feeling really down, that is what I wanted to do more than anything was go to the dancing place in Woodinville that I go to.  I wish I was brave enough to go by myself or that more of my friends would go out with me.  That's what I'm doing tonight and I just cannot wait!! That is what is getting me through today. I'm going dancin to Disco tonight! (it is better than it sounds - really!)