Wednesday, May 16, 2012


I am going to a cousins wedding on Sunday and I just found out my sister wasn't invited.  Now, I don't know if it was an oversight or on purpose.  My mom claims it was on purpose but one can't always believe what my mom says.  I would like to give my cousin the benefit of the doubt.  She is a very family oriented person.  When she found out that much of the family wasn't invited to her brothers wedding she called them up and gave them earful and made them invite the family.

Yes, my sister is develpmentally disabled.  Yes, she isn't attractive and neither is her husband.  They are both a little weird and quirky, BUT they are family.  Her feelings were hurt but she moved recently and she thinks my cousin must have just not had her address.

I am tempted to ask my cousin.  And normally probably would.... except there has already been an issue that I caused (well, I didn't necessarily cause, but was in the middle of) for her wedding so I don't want to cause her any more greif.  But ... I don't know.... if she didn't invite my sister on purpse, I almost don't want to go to the wedding...

Life is SO hard right now.  I am greiving over something, incredibly stress over something and so very happy about something else.  All of those emotions are wreaking havoc on my body.  Pretty bad Fibro flare up and a horrible tension headache that keeps triggering a migraine.  I hate it when I have a headache cycle like this. It is VERY hard to break it. *sigh*

Tuesday, May 15, 2012


When I got back from Kar's SB game last night (Which they won 31-13!!), there sitting on the porch was tile and all the stuff that is needed to tile a bathroom!!! 

A few weeks ago C had told me that if I picked out different tile that he would do it.  The stuff that I had picked out 5 years ago (yes, it's been that long since the bathroom remodel) is a very difficult tile - each 12x12 tile is really made up of 9 3x3 tiles that are hooked together. Makes laying it down and grouting a lot harder....which is why I haven't attempted it myself.  So I picked out a plain tannish tile - the cheapest thing that the large chain store had. I told him I couldn't afford to do it for awhile though. 

So last night I come home to everything needed sitting there.  He says it needs to be done before the plywood is all ruined and needs to come up.... so he's just going to do it. 

I just gott new tires on my truck last week, because safety is important; and now a tiled bathroom - probably on Thursday.  Feeling very lucky and grateful right now. (Which I already do every time I look out at my yard!)

Monday, May 14, 2012

Lots going on

It's been almost a month since I've posted. 

A lot has been going on and I just can't blog about most of it... can't put it out on the web for people to see.  Let's just say that at the moment a little piece of me has died.

On a happy note - Kar's SB team is in the playoffs!  They play a game tonight and it they win, the championship game is Wednesday night.  Unfortunately I work at pizza and won't be able to see it. 

It really bums me out, but at the moment I need all the $ I can get... and it's my fault for procrastinationg filing bankruptcy and now I have a garnishment on my check and 42% of my next couple of checks is being taken.  Oh, it's 25% of gross... but it ends up being 42% of my next.  If I get my bankruptcy filed, I might be able to get it stopped.  I've worked on the paperwork, but it literally makes me sick while I'm working on it and with the other issue I've got going on, it is just SO hard.  But I am finally working on it. 

Going home early today with a migraine.  Kar stayed home with a migraine.  Stress is a horrible thing for the body.  I have a Fibro flare up going on too.  But enough complaining. :-)  Just trying to live life on life's terms the best that I can, one day at a time.