I try to smile

So, I heard this along time ago:


"Smiles make you feel good. Even if you're feeling a little blue, insert happy thoughts into your mind and just add that smile. The smile will trick your mind into feeling better, as endorphins are released to reduce physical or emotional stress."


If you put a smile on your face, even if you aren't feeling it, it is supposed to make you feel better.  So every morning on my way to work I try to remember to put a smile on my face to set the mood for the day.  No matter what mood I am in or how I am feeling, when I answer the phone at work there is a smile in my voice.  


So today, I had JUST plastered that smile on my face.  Put some happy thoughts in my mind (despite the depressing evening and morning I had, which I will tell you about shortly) and there was blue sky.  LOVELY DAY.  Then I switch lanes on the freeway.  And hear skidding behind me. I look in my rear view mirror and there is a card stopped in the freeway. I HAD CHANGED LANES ALMOST INTO IT!  If it hadn't slammed on it's brakes, I would have totally broadsided it.  I wet myself a little and shook for the next 10 minutes to work.  I am sure the poor driver did the same thing.  I have had that happen to me before, (as the driver that had to slam on their brakes) and was upset for HOURS afterwards.  I am still mortified.  


Last night was SO exhausting.  I spent most of the evening with Karli.  She is just hurting SO much.  So is Kallyn.  She had something awful happen with a friend yesterday that just added to her stress and depression.  He is being punished with 30 days in King County jail for something he SO didn't do.  The justice system is not always fair. (Yes, I am saying SO a lot).  Karli would not get up this morning.  She just kept covering the blankets over her head saying she wanted to stay in bed all day.  I made her get up for school but I had to drive her.  When we left the house, there were two aid cars at a neighbors house, loading the dad in as we left.  He is in his 50's and has early onset Alzheimer's as the result of a brain injury from a few years ago.  She has known his son all her life (She calls him the brother she never wanted).   


I was talking to Jake almost every day but I haven't talked to him since last Friday because I know if I do, I will just end up getting all upset.  Oh, with the exception of that every night at 9 he sends a text to all 3 of us that says almost the same exact thing every night "Good night, love you all very much".  I usually respond by saying "Good Night" and that's it.  Sometimes I don't respond.  I don't really like being included but it's not enough to make me say anything to him and make his ego any worse than it is. 


Phil didn't see his shadow, meaning spring is coming early.  HOWEVER, I have heard he is NOT a very good forecaster. 



 The National Climatic Data Center reportedly stated that Phil's prediction's have been correct 39 percent of the time. 
Don't forget to BREATHE.