No surgery!

I saw the Neurosurgeon today and he didn't see anything in the neck MRI that made him want to do surgery and I really have no neck symptoms.  That's not where all my problems are. He didn't think that would be causing my headaches.  He thinks my back/leg pain is from a compressed nerve - which is what if feels like to me! It feels just like it did when I herniated my disc in 2004.  He is putting me on 14 days of prednisone type stuff and if that does not help then he wants to do an MRI and possibly an injection.   For the last 2 weeks I've been scared to even move my neck for fear I'd paralyze myself because everyone else had me scared to death.

I am still in "survival mode".  Between the pain and the stress, I just want to work and come home. When I get in this much pain it is like home is my safety net and I don't want to leave it.  I almost have anxiety about leaving to go to work. And ohmygod I'm so tired.  I am not sleeping well, even with Ambien.  I wake up at least once in the middle of the night. Pain makes you tired. Stress makes you tired.

Kallyn needs a job and is causing herself great stress.  She has applied at places and hasn't her back from anyone so she is calling herself a failure.  The girl has been trying for maaaybe 2 weeks.

Karli is trying to decide which highschool to go to.  BHS or IHS.  She says she hates school period. She begged to go to BHS because alll of her friends were going to go there and once I said "yes" now she can't decide because her friends are actually split about half and half.  She is interested in the Culinary Arts program that BHS has but that's not until 11th grade. IHS is known for being the Academic - 4 year college career path HS and BHS as the Vocational career path HS and Karli is more the vocational or 2 yr college person.