We shall not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it

"We shall not regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it."
This is an AA saying (one of the "promises" so to speak, if you follow the 12 Steps)
We cannot regret what we did in the past too much as it is what made us who we are today and we can't try to forget it all completely as we need to remember our mistakes so that we shall not repeat them.

We cannot "Future Trip" (another AA saying... there are so so many) - because then we will freak out. We need to take one day at a time. So many things happen each day, each hour, each minute - what good is it to worry too much about something out of our control that might or might not happen in a month or a year? There was a local car wash that had a reader board sign for a long time that read "Worry is a mis-use of the imagination". I like that a lot.

But we should focus on TODAY, also called the PRESENT and what is a present? It is a GIFT. That is all we truly have is the GIFT OF TODAY and we should treasure it.

Did I make you gag? Made myself gag a little bit. I truly to believe it, I just have a lot of trouble remembering it sometimes.

Another AA saying is "you are right where you are supposed to be" is that sort of another way of saying everything happens for a reason?

When I read Mo's 'What If' Blog, I was speechless. I had been doing a little What iffing just the night before. What if I hadn't become an alcoholic and drug addict? What if I hadn't killed all those brain cells? What might I have become? Would I be more than an Office Administrator? or am I right where I am supposed to be? Job-wise, I honestly think I am.

When I was 2 months sober I went with a guy from AA to Leavenworth for the day. We were sitting on this grassy hill talking and he asked me if I could have one wish right now, what would it be. The first thing that popped into my head - so clear - was this image of a house and I was looking from the outside in, through the front room window, and in the house was a family - husband, wife & kids and they were all laughing and happy. I could literally feel the warmth and happiness in me sitting there on that grassy hill. THAT was what I wanted. I wanted to be the wife of that happy family. I have had that wish come true. Not all the time, but many times. I think that wipes out a lot of What ifs.